humility
seasons of change
i know that i am going to sound completely ridiculous to all of you especially considering my last blog but know that i am going through a season of change and this season of change has not been easy by any stretch of the imagination. the process has been painful as the leaves that i love are slowly separating from my tree and falling onto the ground...as the winter brings chills to my branches but I know that HE is always good and faithful and I will rest in His never ending love and never ending provision.
i have full heartedly decided not to go back to Australia. WHAT?? you might be thinking....didn't God tell you to go??? didn't God give you peace about going and sticking to what He told you before??? how can at one point God say GO and now He is saying STAY???
i don't have all the exact words to tell each one of you how i came to this decision. i don't know how to explain how at one point i can have peace about going and the next moment not having peace but i know that right now at this moment the decision to stay has given me complete peace and joy.
i know many of you are probably doubting that God spoke to me before or doubting that He is speaking to me now but i know with all of my heart that He does speak to me. He speaks to me completely differently than each one of you and He takes me through these crazy pathways in order for me to clearly hear his voice. my friend kris reminded me that He speaks to my heart, He knows my personal and unique language and he created me to hear him in very specific ways...and... I HAVE HEARD!
i hate that means that i won't be seeing a lot of you that i had been planning on for quite a while now. i hate that i have probably disappointed you...my heart hurts that i will not be returning but my heart would also have hurt when if had gone and should of stayed.
God spoke to Abraham to sacrifice his son Isaac. God also spoke to Abraham not to sacrifice his son Isaac. it is about the process and the journey more so than the location or the action of following through. it is all about seeking his will for us each day.
i am sorry to each one of you that have banked on me going. i love you all so much. thank you for being apart of this process with me and praying for me, helping provide for me and encouraging me.
posted by renee at
5:09 PM
8 Comments:
You're absolutely right. God doesn't change his mind. He had this in mind all along. Perhaps a test so you could see the extent to which you're willing to follow his nudgings. Maybe you were supposed to follow to be an example of humility to those around you, as a person willing to follow in seemingly opposing directions. In any case, well done.
Hey friend,
Thanks for sharing your heart here. I'm sure this was a hard one to write in hopes that people will understand. I love you and am proud of you for never being afraid to change your plans as you listen to God's leading.
dayn said it so well, even talking with you yesterday...i know you are following God. i will continue to pray that His plan will be clear to you. again like dayn said "a person willing to follow in seemingly opposing direction" your brave sister!
i love you, you are brave, your faith has always been a call to greatness and it will be even more so now. To anyone or anything that makes you doubt God's leading or yourself: "Where were you when the foundation of the earth was laid?" Job 38:4
Amen sister!
I pray for you!
Thanks for your updates.
Hey, Claire and I really want to come visit you this winter, should we bring our own sleds or do u have some extras?
P.S. Get ready for them Snowangels!!!!
Renee-Beth Life is so full of epiphanies! if we were too sure of our path it'd be rather boring. you are aware of God's presence, you are seeking His will rather than your own, and your heart is open. PLUS you have great shoes and perfect teeth. I predict you will be useful to God wherever you are, and that's quite a big deal.
Renee, this must be an... interesting... time for you... I can't even imagine what you'd be going through with this.
Anyways... I don't think God changes his mind, and I still think you heard God correctly the first time.
Read Genesis 22:1-18... that's when God told Abraham to sacrifice Isaac. God told Abraham to do one thing that in the end He had no intention of allowing Abraham to do.
So... persevere, and keep listening. Praying for you.
hey at least you know how healthy you are... i mean before all those tests, im sure you were wondering.
"Maybe i caught plague?"
mysteries, that never get solved... unless you fool everyone into thinking youre going to aussie land and youre really not.
Ah
SIKE
RENNNEEEEEEEEEEEEEe
-kourtney w/a K
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